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  Still Go Crazy

  Swoon Series

  J.H. Croix

  Contents

  1. Grace

  2. Boone

  3. Grace

  4. Boone

  5. Boone

  6. Grace

  7. Grace

  8. Boone

  9. Grace

  10. Boone

  11. Grace

  12. Boone

  13. Grace

  14. Boone

  15. Grace

  16. Boone

  17. Grace

  18. Boone

  19. Grace

  20. Boone

  21. Grace

  22. Boone

  23. Grace

  24. Boone

  25. Grace

  26. Boone

  27. Boone

  28. Grace

  29. Boone

  Epilogue

  Excerpt: If We Dare

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  Acknowledgments

  About the Author

  This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, businesses, places, events and incidents are either the products of the author’s imagination or used in a fictitious manner. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, or actual events is purely coincidental.

  Copyright © 2020 J.H. Croix

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  Chapter One

  Grace

  My ancient cat, Wayne, let out a plaintive meow.

  “Seriously?” I countered, turning to glare at Wayne.

  Wayne cocked his head to the side before lifting his haunches slightly and settling back down. His only reply was another meow. This time, his annoyance was quite clear.

  I eyed the tree from where I stood on the back deck. It was a lovely dogwood situated in the backyard. “Wayne, how the hell did you get up there?”

  Although I didn’t expect an answer, I was genuinely curious. According to the vet, Wayne was close to blind as a result of his cataracts. He was approaching seventeen years old, so it was surprising he could see anything, much less climb a tree.

  I rested a hand on my hip, contemplating my options. “I need to get to work, you know,” I called over to him.

  Wayne didn’t even deign that with a response. My father had gotten Wayne for me when I was twelve, and Wayne had come to live with me in this duplex after I graduated from college. My parents bought the duplex when they had a brief separation while I was in college. After they reunited, they kept it and rented it out. When my father passed away, my mother deeded the whole place to me.

  I’d arranged for a property management company to rent out the other half of the duplex because I hated trying to screen tenants. I wished I knew who’d moved in the day before because I could’ve used some help at the moment.

  With another long look at Wayne on his perch, I glanced at my watch and contemplated if I had enough time to do this. It didn’t really matter if I did because I wasn’t leaving until Wayne was safely inside.

  Wayne meowed again, and I glared at him from the porch. “You’re an idiot, you know?”

  This wasn’t the first time Wayne had climbed into his favorite tree and been unable to get down. I had an excellent view from the deck upstairs. The duplex was built into a sloping hill with the living space on the upper floor with a garage that was nothing more than a glorified storage space on the lower floor. Stepping back inside, I jogged down the stairs and snagged the ladder before walking out into the backyard. I leaned the ladder against the tree and commenced the rescue of my adventurous, geriatric cat.

  I climbed to the top of the ladder with my feet firmly hooked into the rungs. I was reaching for Wayne when he meowed and shifted just as I leaned over to get him. In a flash, one of my feet wobbled, I lost my balance, and reflexively grabbed for the closest sturdy branch. Unfortunately, I accidentally kicked the ladder loose when my weight shifted.

  “Wayne!” I exclaimed as I found myself dangling from the tree branch. Granted, I was only maybe ten feet in the air, but I didn’t really want to drop from this height. Wayne walked closer, leaning his head down to nuzzle my hand. He peered at me, his foggy round blue eyes assessing me.

  “You know, Wayne, you can’t keep doing this,” I said conversationally as I assessed my situation. My only actual option was dropping to the ground.

  Just as I was considering whether or not I might break an ankle in the process of doing so, I heard a voice.

  “Grace?”

  I knew that voice. Oh-so-very well.

  My pulse took off at a gallop, and my stomach knotted immediately. Of all the times for Boone Reeves to see me, it just had to be now. I promptly decided I’d rather dive straight to the ground and break my ankle than ask for his help. As soon as I made that decision, I looked down and reconsidered. The grass was just far enough away that if I didn’t land well, it would be unpleasant.

  More unfortunate than me encountering Boone at this particular moment was the fact that Boone was a rescue kind of guy. Peering over my shoulder, I saw him jogging off the back porch of the duplex.

  What the hell is he doing here?

  Boone stopped at my feet and glanced up. Without even asking, he quickly propped the ladder against the tree and climbed it, reaching for my hand.

  “Come on,” he said. “I’ll get you down.”

  “Boone, that ladder can’t hold both of us.”

  “Sure it can. Come on, Grace.”

  Wayne meowed loudly and then started purring. My cat was fucking purring at the sight of my ex. The man who all but threw my love in the trash.

  Boone’s face cracked with a grin. “Nice to see you again, Wayne.” His gaze swung back to me. “Grace, your arms are shaking. Let me help you.”

  My arms were shaking, and my hands were tired. I didn’t want help from anybody, most adamantly not Boone. But I prided myself on being a smart girl.

  Biting back a sigh, I shifted slightly, and Boone wrapped his arm around my waist. The feel of his strong, steady touch was like a live wire, electrifying my entire body.

  I had successfully avoided too much contact with Boone for almost a year now. Without a doubt, being this up close and personal with him was a special kind of hell.

  “Boone.” His name just slipped out, my voice sounding frayed. I was getting anxious as he tugged me a little closer.

  “Grace, I’ve got you. I promise.”

  The thing was, I believed him. Boone wouldn’t drop me. He might’ve once kicked my love to the curb as though it had never mattered, but he wouldn’t let me fall. Truth be told, he wouldn’t let anyone in my situation fall. He was strong and resourceful, oozing with that save-any-damsel-in-distress vibe.

  I stopped resisting, and Boone pulled me even closer. I finally let go
of the tree branch completely, both out of resignation and sheer tiredness. My arms were shaking and a strange tingling sensation was taking over. I made a mental note to start doing pull-ups, almost embarrassed at how poor my upper body strength was.

  With one hand on the ladder, Boone held me close as I fumbled to get my feet on the rungs.

  “I gotcha,” he said.

  The raspy vibration of his voice, so close to my ear, sent an inconvenient shiver chasing over my skin. In a matter of seconds, we were on the ground. I stepped back abruptly, my legs almost giving out. I didn’t know if my shakiness was from hanging onto the branch …or from getting too close to Boone.

  My cheeks were hot, but I willed myself to look at him. I wasn’t going to be a coward. I met his gaze head-on, trying and failing to take a deep breath. My body was in an all-out war with my mind.

  Boone was everything I remembered and more. It wasn’t that I hadn’t seen him recently. It was more that I hadn’t allowed myself more than a passing glance. The young man he’d once been had been honed into much more of a man. Tall with a rangy build, his shaggy dark blond hair was rumpled with the ends brushing his shoulders. He moved with an unconscious grace and was all lithe, lean muscle.

  Boone looked at me, his dark chocolate gaze coasting over me, warm and concerned. “You okay?” he asked.

  I swallowed and nodded. “Yeah. Thanks for that.”

  He gestured up toward Wayne. “I’m guessing you were trying to get Wayne down.”

  Butterflies had taken up residence in my belly, an unsettled bunch of them. Wrapping my arms around my waist, I gripped my elbows tightly, trying to find an anchor inside the storm of emotions buzzing through my body.

  With Boone’s eyes holding mine, the beginning of a grin teasing at the corners of his mouth, I felt as if I had stepped through a window in time—back to our senior year of high school when Boone was my boyfriend. We spent many afternoons together, and Boone had been endlessly amused by Wayne’s antics.

  “Yeah,” I finally managed to reply, the word coming out ragged.

  “I’ll get him.” Boone turned, climbing the ladder before I could even respond. In another moment, I heard him murmuring to Wayne as my cat nestled into the crook of his arm, staying put as if he were a well-trained, obedient cat.

  “Where should I take him?” Boone asked once he was standing on the ground in front of me again. Wayne, the disloyal cat that he was, was purring up a storm now and rubbing his chin against Boone’s shoulder.

  I had to unstick myself and climb back through that window in time to the present. “Right this way,” I said, turning and almost running into the house. Coming to a skidding stop on the back deck, I looked up at Boone. “I can take him.”

  Wayne, as if he knew what I meant, meowed and burrowed deeper into Boone’s arms. When I tried to reach for him, Wayne was having none of it, shifting away from me and burying his face against Boone. Boone chuckled.

  With a sigh, I gestured for Boone to follow me inside. “Come on up.”

  The downstairs of the duplex contained a shared entryway and two separate staircases that led to the upstairs on each side. I had a sickening feeling that the property management company had rented it to Boone.

  Opening the door upstairs, I held it as Boone walked through. At that point, Wayne leaped out of his arms and immediately climbed into his small bed on the windowsill.

  “Well, thanks again,” I said as I turned back to Boone.

  This was supposed to be the point where Boone took the hint and left. He didn’t.

  Cocking his head to the side, his gaze swept over my face. “I’m just now realizing that you’re my neighbor,” he said softly.

  Chapter Two

  Boone

  Grace Lakes stood before me, her mesmerizing silver eyes flashing and her chin lifting with a stubborn tilt. My entire body felt like an antenna tuned to one frequency—Grace.

  I wanted a reckoning with her, but I hadn’t counted on it being like this.

  “You rented the other half of the duplex?” she asked, each word enunciated clearly in that soft, crisp tone of hers.

  Most people who had a Southern accent had words with round edges, where everything kind of sloughed off slowly, moving like honey. With Grace, she had the twang, but her enunciation was so precise and clear. It was strangely endearing to me—just like the first time I fell for her—and now, knowing just how easily I’d fallen under the spell of this woman once before.

  As I stared at her, I realized I hadn’t actually heard her voice since I’d moved back to Stolen Hearts Valley last year. I’d seen her plenty of times—every single time was a yank on the string attached to my heart.

  I nodded slowly, waiting for her to flee. After all, that’s what she always did when we were anywhere in the same vicinity for the last year.

  During the moments I took her in, Grace tucked her arms around her waist again, her shoulders curling inward. She bit the corner of her lip. I wanted to lift my thumb, to smooth the furrow on her brow and cup her cheek.

  I didn’t realize I had actually done what I was thinking until I was standing right in front of her, my thumb resting over the rapid flutter of her pulse along the side of her neck.

  Her breath drew in sharply. I stared into her smoky, gorgeous eyes. I didn’t realize I’d been holding my breath until she spoke.

  “Boone.”

  The sound of my name coming from her lips was a fiery jolt to my heart

  “Yeah, sugar?”

  The endearment slipped out. I could feel the tension vibrating from Grace, a subtle tremor running through her.

  We stood like that, frozen in place with our eyes locked together. Grace’s eyes were like one of those afternoons when the sky couldn’t decide if it planned to riot with a storm or let the clouds blow by.

  Her smoky gaze flashed in shades of silver. All the while, I held my breath.

  Just as I had reached up to cup her cheek without thinking, so did I dip my head and brush my lips across hers. Sensation shot through me, so electric was the feel of her lips under mine.

  Grace gasped, literally jumping away from me. “I can’t!”

  Angling my head to the side, I eyed her carefully. “I don’t see why not, Grace. I’ve missed you. So damn much.”

  She stared at me, her lips parted slightly and her shoulders rising and falling with her rapid breaths.

  “How can you say that?” she countered as a look of pure devastation passed over her face. It took all I had not to walk over and pull her into my arms and explain the whole fucking mess. I wanted to make her listen, to make her understand.

  Yet, I knew Grace. I knew her so well. She hated to be pushed and only strengthened her defenses when anybody put pressure on her.

  Closing my eyes, I took a breath and nodded as I opened them. “Just let me explain what happened.”

  “Please just go.” Her words were raw and frayed around the edges. Her eyes were bright, and I knew I saw the glitter of unshed tears. “Just go,” she repeated, this time her voice more forceful.

  Wayne took that moment to meow loudly. Mentally wrestling, I debated whether to stay. Just then, my cell phone rang with the distinct warning tone for Stolen Hearts Valley Emergency Response Team. I was on call, and that meant I needed to get going. “I’ll go, but I want to try to talk soon. Please.”

  Grace lifted her chin, the muscles in her jaw tightening. “I don’t know what the hell there is to talk about.”

  I closed the distance between us, cupping her chin lightly. “You know damn well there is. If there wasn’t, you wouldn’t have managed to avoid getting anywhere near me for most of the year since I came back. I know I fucked up and didn’t handle things well, but you never even gave me a chance to explain. I won’t take a chance now, but it’s coming.”

  At that, I bent low once more and brushed my lips across hers again, almost craving the hot jolt it gave my system. I recognized the answering flare of desire in Grace’s eyes wh
en I lifted my head. Without a word, I walked past her and jogged down the stairs as my phone blared again.

  Chapter Three

  Grace

  I didn’t know how long I stood frozen in place with two fingers pressed lightly over my mouth. My lips tingled, and my entire body hummed with a confused sense of emotion … desire, anger, regret, and so many more feelings I couldn’t even label.

  Having Boone touch me again felt like two planets colliding in space. My entire cellular composition was attempting to reconfigure and absorb the impact.

  Wayne meowed, finally breaking through my frozen state. Dropping my fingers from my lips, I spun around, narrowing my eyes at him. “This is all your fault.”

  Wayne simply lifted his gray leg and started cleaning himself. I rolled my eyes and turned away, searching out where I had left my phone. Spying it on the kitchen counter, I strode across the room to pick it up. Tapping on my mother’s contact, I called her.

  She answered on the second ring. “Hey Grace, how’re you doing this morning?” she asked in her forever cheerful voice.

  I didn’t even bother with a greeting. “The property place rented the other side of the duplex to Boone.”

  My mother was quiet for a moment before asking, “Boone Reeves?”

  “Yes, Mom. What other Boone would I be talking about?”

  “Just confirming, Grace. Well, I guess you’ll finally have to deal with him.”